That moment when you realize you are addicted to your identities…. 😳
Have you ever had a new job, bought a new car, or splurged on the purse you have been eyeing up for a while now? 👛 🚗
and then….. felt this euphoria that lasts for a short period of time.
I know this feeling all too well because all my life I have reached to the external world for happiness and my ego wanted so desperately to hang on to so many freaking identities.
I am a bodybuilder.
I am a girlfriend.
I am a soccer player.
I am a corporate employee.
I am a daughter.
I am a personal trainer.
I am too nice.
I am too loud.
I am an internal processor.
I am a people pleaser.
(just to name a few).
What I have learned to be true is that the more of these “euphoric” feelings I felt, the more I kept wanting (similar to any kind of addiction).
Here’s the deal. When it comes to identities, you have to choose which one’s aren’t serving you.
How do you figure this out?
Make a list of “I am” statements. Figure out which ones really align with your soul’s passion and purpose and which one’s feel out of alignment and most importantly, be HONEST with yourself.
Then, understand the voids you feel and what they really need. I used to fill voids with overexercising, controlling my food, and fitting into size XS swimming suits. All these things would give me that little euphoria but there was zero sustainability in these actions.
I am beginning to feel this sense of safety in myself and in my body. I continue to show up even when days get hard but so far the payoff has been incredible.
The long term sustainable safety won’t be found in the external world. It will be uncovered within ya love.
If your identities aren’t serving you, I give you permission to start being curious. What is it costing you to hang on these?